"Just Start"

NEW BLOG first post

Hello.

I am stuck.

They say, “Just start.”  

There are so many things I want to do, try, start, think, discuss… I am so stuck. 

Fear. Anxiety.  Afraid of what?  Failing?  I want to believe that mistakes and failures are how we learn, grow, thrive, continue, move forward.  I’m stuck right at the doorstep of what I know I want to embrace. I want to do and be the buzz words - vulnerable and authentic. I feel like I’m in a sci-fi time loop, in control of some choice but not sure which timeline to jump back into.

They say creative people need to create to feed their health and soul.  I know I need to create; I know how good it feels when I paint, craft, write, and then share.  

I am stuck.  

If I announce my stuckness to the social media world, will it help me get unstuck? Somehow hold me accountable to navigating self?

I want to write, start a blog, but our society is so top heavy with blogs here, podcasts there, and webinars spewing out of the cracks on the sidewalk.  The audience of teachers, parents, and general public I’m trying to reach is overwhelmed, still managing to live through a pandemic with new variables and uncertainty at every corner.  No one wants another blog or podcast to add to their list.  Have I missed the window?

There it is again.  Fear.  Then delay.  Then abandoning the spark of initiative.  Why?  Do I not think people will care?  They won’t relate the way I hope they will?  I’ll be too wordy, too long, someone won’t like what I have to say?  

Perhaps this is my “Just start…”  And all its messiness.  Here… my vulnerability poking its little tiny nose through the doorway as it creeks slowly open.  It might shut again, but maybe if I just start, someone will read and notice, and that will feed my creativity just enough to give it some breathing space and move forward.

What are you waiting to "just start"?